The Gift of Grace (I Need It) Part 2

Random Thoughts

Some of us are slow and have to do things over and over before they sink in.  I’ve edited part of the April 24th post (Random Thoughts section) to fit now.  But I really didn’t have to do that much to it, which is rather sad.  Try, try again.

I am sick to death of sleep being such a damn battle.  I have sleep issues related to my childhood and  I am also a light sleeper and if I wake up I have trouble getting back to sleep.  Because I am a light sleeper I have a very low threshold for sleep deprivation (didn’t find this out till I was in my 30′s).  I have a funky metabolic rate which might get me up in the a.m. to eat.  Now add a brain that just will not shut up and I’m screwed.  Routines help to a certain degree,  exhaustion sometimes helps, exercise helps to a certain degree, I’ve taken meds (but because of my metabolism they only last half the time listed so I may just pop awake in the middle of the night).  I can’t just set a schedule and keep it hell or high water because lack of sleep shoots my immune system down and I get sick.  So I have to make time to sleep even if it means sleeping into the afternoon.  Which, of course, just screws with my whole day.  I would love to find just one thing that would shut my brain down and always put me to sleep.  (Aside from a 2 x 4 upside the head.)

I really wanted to start and finish Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach this year.  It has helped in the past and the past couple of years have had a whole lot of not fun in them.  I’m now about three months behind (tomorrow, tomorrow) and am also not writing in my Gratitude Journal.  I need to do this.

I haven’t been getting out in the yard and into the dirt on a regular basis.  Which I know helps tremendously with my mental health.  I need to do this, too.

I got behind on the mail and bills.  Again.  I have got to stop doing this.

I’m fairly new to Tarot, but I have found it helpful and centering.  Now I’m not even doing a card a day draw.  Need to get back to this.

And somewhere in here I need to start exercising (walking) – again.  (Is there an award for # of starts?)

That’s enough whining for today.  I’m going to reach for a favorite little prayer of mine.  I need to get my calligraphy marker out and put this on one of my flowered papers and keep it visible.  For those of you who wish to, substitute your belief system where you will.

Just for Today

Oh, God, give me grace for this day.  Not for a lifetime, nor for next week, nor for tomorrow, just for this day.  Direct my thoughts and bless them.  Direct my work and bless it.  Direct the things I say and give them blessing too.  Direct and bless everything that I think and speak and do.  So that for this one day, just this one day, I have the gift of grace that comes from your presence. — Marjorie Holmes

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I am now up to 10,411 pieces of email deleted.  WOO HOO!  Which means I am now down to the point  where I can find things when they’re sent to me.  I still have a way to go because a lot of what is left has to be read.  But I’m getting there!

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Did you ever buy anything and after you got it home found out it wasn’t quite what you thought it was?  I was digging around in boxes and found a journal I had purchased several years ago, still in its wrapper.  It was on a clearance shelf and cheap and I had gift certificates to burn.  I thought it was lovely/interesting and it even had a key and lock!  So I grabbed it.

Well I started to unwrap it and found the spine had something written on it, um.. “Desire – A Private Journal”  This is the first page:

Well, some of the pages have illustrations on them and there are quotes dealing with “Desire” throughout the journal.  Here is one of the pictures I can show you:

So I’m thinking I’m going to put this back in the box for now, ’cause I’m not really sure exactly what I want to do with it!

Life at Our House

So this weekend Spider Bait is off on a Boy Scout adventure in the rough.  A requirement that needs gotten out-of-the-way before the weather gets nasty.  I growled at him for only taking 1 pair of shoes with him.  I hope his feet haven’t rotted off.  He should be home tomorrow after lunch.

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I was finally able to email my phone pictures to myself from the County Fair.  Yep, with just a little help.  Of course, because they were crappy, cheapo, phone pics, only a couple of them were even usable.  So here’s what I got:

Alpaca baby

Llama baby

Dwarf goat

Baby camel and baby zebra

Baby dwarf goat

Feed Me!  That’s a regular goat of some kind I have never seen before!

Bunny Wabbit!

Another Bunny Wabbit!

And, yep, I’m a Bunny Wabbit too!

This little guy would not sit still for a picture and his girl came up and kept trying to get a pose for me.  But he just wanted out.  This was the best I could do without driving the poor thing nuts.

Fur Babies and Other Friends

Still trying to figure out a name for my lizard.  Uther?  Tiberius?  Sam?  Gryphon?

In the meantime, here’s a lazy day group of critters.

Asleep in my paper mess

The Princess on her pillow

Lazy day bird watching

Streeetch. Ah, yes, this couch is mine!

Out In The Yard

Our header today is the rose Graham Thomas.  It is one of my favorites.

I haven’t been out in the yard much except to water.  But I did find this guy hunting in my windows.

It’s now 10:04 pm and it says I’m over 1,ooo words, so I’m going to call it quits on this one tonight.  (It’ll be another 15-30 minutes for me to proof this and move the photos into the used files.)  Tomorrow is another day.

Add on:  Why in the hell does WordPress eat pieces here and there randomly out of the post???  I find this extremely annoying to have to go back and fill in the blanks.