I’ve ranted my way through several versions of this post and then walked away to try to get perspective. This weekend was frustrating and aggravating along several different lines, but this is a blog – not a book. So I’m just going to hit the personal headlines.
I am sick to death of sleep being such a damn battle. My mother only slept 4-5 hrs. a night and having children who needed 8-9 hrs. annoyed her to no end. She also drops right off when she lies down and would constantly come to the door or stand over me in bed to demand why I wasn’t asleep yet. So I grew up always afraid of not getting to sleep. Knowing why I have trouble getting to sleep has not helped much. I am also a light sleeper and if I wake up I have trouble getting back to sleep. Because I am a light sleeper I have a very low threshold for sleep deprivation (didn’t find this out till I was in my 30’s). I have a funky metabolic rate which might get me up in the a.m. to eat. Now add a brain that just will not shut up and I’m screwed. Routines help to a certain degree, exhaustion sometimes helps, exercise helps to a certain degree, I’ve taken meds (but because of my metabolism they only last half the time listed so I may just pop awake in the middle of the night). I can’t just set a schedule and keep it hell or high water because lack of sleep shoots my immune system down and I get sick. So I have to make time to sleep even if it means sleeping into the afternoon. Which, of course, just screws with my whole day. I would love to find just one thing that would shut my brain down and always put me to sleep. (Aside from a 2 x 4 upside the head.)
I really wanted to start and finish Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach this year. It has helped in the past and the past couple of years have had a whole lot of not fun in them. I’m now about 5 weeks behind (tomorrow, tomorrow) and am also not writing in my Gratitude Journal. I need to do this.
I haven’t been getting out in the yard and into the dirt on a regular basis. Which I know helps tremendously with my mental health. I need to do this, too.
I got behind on the mail and bills. Again. I have got to stop doing this.
I’m fairly new to Tarot, but I have found it helpful and centering. Now I’m not even doing a card a day draw. Need to get back to this.
And somewhere in here I need to start exercising (walking) – again. (Is there an award for # of starts?)
That’s enough whining for today. I’m going to reach for a favorite little prayer of mine. I need to get my calligraphy marker out and put this on one of my flowered papers and keep it visible. For those of you who wish to, substitute your belief system where you will.
Just for Today – Marjorie Holmes
Oh, God, give me grace for this day. Not for a lifetime, nor for next week, nor for tomorrow, just for this day. Direct my thoughts and bless them. Direct my work and bless it. Direct the things I say and give them blessing too. Direct and bless everything that I think and speak and do. So that for this one day, just this one day, I have the gift of grace that comes from your presence.
Life at Our House
So here is that bread I made the other day:
Spider Bait had the Blue and Gold Banquet for Boy Scouts this Saturday and work at the greenhouse on Sunday. I got gas that would scare elephants away and kept me up half the night from something I ate at the Banquet (getting ‘older’ sucks).
Fur Babies and Other Friends
The weather here was miserable this weekend. But I did catch this guy down back:
The Blue Jays are coming back out, so the babies must be hatched (they are very secretive during nesting):
BAD KITTY! (snort, giggle)
Isn’t this face adorable?
Out in the Yard
Our header today is just a plain old pansy.
A lot of times if I’m upset and feel the need to hold a crystal, I reach for Rose Quartz. But today I needed something more ‘substantial’, and reached for my Tiger Iron. After the weekend I had mentally, I was not surprised when I read about its attributes.
Tiger Iron is a form of Jasper. Jasper is common and found worldwide in a variety of colors. Tiger Iron is found quite often in Australia. Its astrological association is Leo and is identified with the Base Chakra. I’m going give you the definition of Tiger Iron strictly from The Crystal Bible by Judy Hall.
“Tiger Iron is a combination of Jasper, Hematite, and Tiger’s Eye. It promotes vitality and helps in passing through change, pointing to a place of refuge when danger threatens. It is extremely helpful for people who are deeply exhausted at any level, especially those suffering from emotional or mental burn-out or family stress. It promotes change by opening a space to contemplate what is needed and then supplying the energy necessary for action. Tiger Iron’s solutions are usually pragmatic and simple. Tiger Iron is a creative and artistic stone that brings out inherent talents.”
“Keep Tiger Iron in contact with the skin.”
The stone below is a massage stone. It looks even better in the sun.
Mug of the Day